You know how the saying goes "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me". You also know this never feels like the case. It is so easy for us to hold on to the negative words. Maybe someone abandoned you, someone called you a nasty name, or picked on the way you look or the clothes you wear. So many of us carry this emotional baggage with us for the rest of our lives. It doesn't have to be this way! Baggage is so heavy and exhausting and in my case kept me from trusting anyone. I pushed everyone away before they could get a chance to let me down. Baggage fogged my judgement and led me down a path of desperation for any attention.
Psalm 2:12 "Your way will lead to your own destruction"
Your emotional pain does not have to define you! It does not have to cripple you and drink up all the joy you have. Trust me! If you give the devil power to get under your skin he will help you tie that rock to your own feet and watch you sink. The more you feed into the lies; "I don't have any friends" or "I am just never good enough", you will start to believe it and miss so many opportunities.
For me the start of a new life was realizing God's love for me. God sent his one and only son to be brutally killed on our behalf. He bled perfect blood to cover our sins so we could live a life of forgiveness, and so we don't have to shed our own blood. Even better! He paved the way for us to live forever in heaven with him after death.
This piece was done the summer of 8th grade moving into high school. I was telling the story of the caterpillar turning into a butterfly. These changes represent my journey to adulthood and becoming something/someone totally new. Written in the butterflys' wings is "Finally Free" which was my hope to be free from depression, loneliness, self harm, and sducidal thoughts. I used art as an outlet to deal with the darkness inside of me. I would encourage everyone to search for a healthy outlet as well! Its amazing to look back at this piece and see how broken I truly was at age 13! I have been finally freed from my former self and renewed in God's love!
I challenge you to take a moment and think about how God is seeking you! God has led you to this place to hear of his love for you. He wants you to make a decision; he wants to guide you in a life full of joy. You must only accept him as your savior and welcome him into your heart. I serve a God who found me! He left the herd of 99 sheep to find me and save me from myself. He is looking for you too! Your feeling of guilt, shame, and unworthiness tells you that you are not good enough, and this is true! We are not good enough and that is exactly why God wants to cleanse your sin.. By blessing me with a horse, and family who showed unconditional grace, and now an amazing husband who I prayed so long for. He replaced my sorrows with blessings beyond compare. I laid my life down for his purpose and he has never let me down. He cares for th ebirds and how they get their food. Why wouldn't he care that much and more for you.
Psalm 3:8 "From the Lord comes deliverance."
Enjoy this song close to my heart of God fighting for a relationship with you.
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