I would say right now I am struggling. I have been working since I was about 13-14 years old, and I am 21 now. Ive worked full time hours since I graduated high school in 2017. Every job I've had has been better than the one before. My pay increased, benefits got better, and I got really good at what I was doing. This Pandemic left me without a job for the past year now. I took this opportunity to take up real estate classes! I saw this as an opportunity from God to go after something I had been thinking about a lot.
Needless to say I don't do well in school settings. Because of the Pandemic I chose to enroll in online courses. It has been really tough. I have been struggling to teach myself the content and pass tests accordingly. I have 3 tests to take. I barely passed the first and failed the second. I have been studying for probably 4-6 weeks now and I just can't seem to get it. On another note I was offered a job doing data entry at a good family friends business. I was given the choice to work whatever hours I choose. Again something I had been praying for. I know if/when I do get into real estate it is going to take time to build up cliental. I can't say I feel super excited about the work. However, this opportunity has been laid right in my lap fr a reason!
I started this blog with hopes to reach others. I want to share what God has done in my life. I hope that atleast one person turns to Christ because of what he has done in my life. I would also say though, I see so many people working from home these days. I want to be a mom more than anything. I also know that just being at home right now is not an option. I want so badly to be doing something that I can stay home and be with our baby someday. But, nothing seems to be working out for me. I'm feeling sad about going back into work every day. I feel frustrated with real estate. Why can't I just remember the answers? I just have been feeling so depressed and guilty. Then I read this verse this morning.
Psalm13:3-6 "Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Give light to my eyes or I will sleep in death, and my enemy will say "I have overcome him/her". and my foes will rejoice when I fall. But I trust in your unfailing love. My heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing the Lords praise for He has been good to me".
I am still not sure what my path is. I do know that I feel I am going after what God has put in front of me as an opportunity. It might not seem to me like what I want for myself. But, I look to God for direction. I rejoice in his love for me. I take comfort in knowing He is the all knowing and will always have my best interest set first. He has been so good to me. I would encourage you also to make a list of the good things in your life. Do not let the Devil take these things away from you. Every moment here on Earth is precious and goes by with the blink of an eye. Your enemies will laugh when you fall, so what will they do when you rise?
I look around at people on social media making it their career. I wish for success like that a lot. I read further in Psalm chapter 14 and God says He cannot understand why people get so caught up in the world. He's looking down on us trying to find the people who want to follow him and we are distracted. We are looking at things that are not prospering! I am a dreamer I think we all have dreams. Why do you think these dreams are inside of us? God wants to see us achieve. It is all in his plan and his timing. You only need to trust in him. I try so hard sometimes to get a hold of my own life that I forget I don't need to go at this alone. Finally I read this verse and I am relieved...
Philipians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about ANYTHING. But in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God".
This is a song I grew up listing to and it's amazing what listing to the lyrics now means to me. Every week I try to find a song best fitting to my post. I don't always have on right in mind. For this one I just hit shuffle on my phone and this was the first one. Enjoy!
I also wanted to explain my photo choice this week. I wanted to show the things I am greatful for in my life right now. These are things God has provided for giving me proof He is watching over me why would he stop now?
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